shattered_ears

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 18:01:10 GMT

i cant wiat until my senior year, i get to move away from this hell hole everyone calls san angelo!

i just want to leave everything behind..

this year pretty much has sucked.. one of my best friends moves to CA.. and i hear that two of my other BFFs are going to move to, i cant deal with anymore people moving..i already have cried wayy to much.

and on top of all that im havig boy troubles, but whats new.
i like a boy and im not sure if he likes me but he acts like he does like me but im just not sure.
then there is another guy and he really likes me but im not too sure on how much i like him and i dont want to ruin our friendship by dating him and i dont want to ruin our friendship by not dating him!
ahhh

will someone please help me...

why am i always hurting?

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 23:57:03 GMT

if its not my knee/ankle its josh!

i mean i walk off a curb and i strained my knee and ankle, im used to it by now because it happens about 2 times a year for me...

and lets see...

josh, he makes me hurt by things that shouldnt bother me i guess its because im jealous that he is givign his attention to other people... but im assuming becuase i dont wanna get hurt again im paranoid!! but im assumiong you would get mad if your boyfriend/girlfriend was giving a fake lapdance to someone of te opposite sex!!?? idk i just keep letting my guard up on things that are stupid...i just need to let got of all the past hurts and put less of my guard up and know that josh wont hurt me and is here i guess to protect me

somebody save me from this dark hole that jsut keeps sucking me in!

yay

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 02:02:08 GMT

i thought i would update...

life is actually oddly amazing

i mean yeah i cried at homecoming, because i felt like i couldnt be myself without being told to stop being whoever i was being..it was gay

i have some weird infection...and it hurts really bad

im the junior class sec. *which i really wanted*

im beinging to be less and less awkward feeling around my exboyfriends, becuase used to it would take me forever to talk to them adn now i can just walk up and be like HEY!!!

josh has turned out to be wayyy better than planned, he's a pretty Rad kiddo... sad thing is im afraid to tell him how i feel so in case he doesnt feel the same...but im pretty sure i love him!!!

work really isnt all that awesome *the pay* so im gunna go and get me another job so i can pay for all my bills...

ahh i just love it

ohh btw i got my license today

but my car is in the shop for like another 5 days or whatever

and i abs. love all my friends im serious im pretty sure i would have killed myself by now or something
if it wasnt for them...

Ashly

ahhh

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 03:12:39 GMT

just thought id post on how great life is

plus i hadnt posted in ages!

ehhh

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 01:18:05 GMT

i guess im doing better now these days...

i got a job at outback
i still think paris hilton is a whore
i wanna punch is a couple of soph. in the face, im sorry but they are the only people that have told me i was ugly to my face
Tessa is my BFF
we went and got our senior rings estimated it was awesome...

i wanna be with josh forever..he gives me a feeling like no other!

whatever

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 05:52:38 GMT

How can you call someone that you ahvent talked to all day and ony talk for 5 min because you and your friends or whatever are leaving to do something....this happens everytime we talk ( im getting the feeling you dont wanna talk to me) why even call the person?? come on, half the time you dont even talk to me and then you say you have to go, I'm not sure but that confuses me...
why is it that i put myself into everything i do but everyone else doesn't put half as much effort?
I get the feeling that people are starting to stop caring but whatever i guess thats what this world is coming to these days.I may as well quit caring, you know thats what I'll do

ehh...

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 15:45:25 GMT

gah everything gets messed up...

yesterday i went to disney on ice (it was amazing)
and then i went to Josh's house, totally forgot about the balloon fight (MANN!!), and we watched movies, and ate dinner (talk about awkward (it was a family dinner))

idk hmm lets see i also got yelled at for coming home an hour late, got yelled at for waking up too late..

WHAT DO I DO RIGHT THESE DAYS???

idk...

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 02:57:30 GMT

not too sure if i understnad this whole drinking thing...
why is it that everyone thinks its cool...
im not sure, but it upsets me...
first my friend gets int eh car with a wasted person, who doesnt even remember driving ( i mean are you that stupid)...
then hmm idk gah i need to quit crying this is the most stupid thing to cry over, i guess im just worried about things!

ohh well obviously those people dont care too much about me, but whatever!

hmm

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 02:51:59 GMT

so today was supposed to be the water balloon fight but that got post-poned until tomorrow... i really hope i can go!

but since that got cancelled today we went to the mall to hang out with Molly, Tessa, Jessi and Mariah...

then Molly Mariah and Jessi left, so me Josh Mikhail and Tessa went to the park...

that was Rad then we went to Mikhail's it was hilarious!!!

so molly wanted me to update...

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 23:51:57 GMT

hmm...lets see..

i got a boyfriend. his name is josh!
i wish all these crazy things would come to an end...
i wish i could make up my mind on what i wanted...
i decided that molly is the most deserving person in the world for an awesome boyfriend!
also decided that once i graduate im out of this town, maybe one more year, so i can take everyone with me!
plus if any of my friends needs me to come get them at like 3 in the morn. i will..plus if they need me there will be no need for gas $!(but so far Molly is the most deserving)

so...

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 20:14:02 GMT

sad thing is i move on in life wayy to quickly one minute im in "love" witha person the feelings fasde adn two days later i have m eyes on somebody else!!! i think i may be crazy

and again an even longer time...

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 05:18:11 GMT

ok so i officially hate it when i go to log in to something and i have forgotten my username or my password... hmm wow lately i havent really talked to randy and i think i am feeling withdrawal!!!

ok but anyways im nt depressed or anything but i have been writing some very depressing and emo poems... im not sure but i do that alot!

wow talk about family being a big pain.... my family on my dads side keeps hardcore secrets and are probally the best but yet the worst!!!

Im really excited for school to start... ahhh thats really sad that im bored with summer that much that i want school to start but then again thats the time whenever i see all my friends so YAY!!!

hmm wow i really feel like i am typing alot lately but then again not...

so i got a 97 BMW 318i convertible for my birthday but im not able to drive it so i think we are going to sell it adn im leanign towards a blazer... its really pretty!!

ok so i think im going to go to bed i leave in what 9 hours....for Courpus Christi!!!

Ashly

so its been awhile....

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 05:12:02 GMT

ok so amazingly i have found the greatest boyfriend in the world... his name is Randy funny thing is i had likeed him for forevers and then finally a couple of days ago he asked me out I have a feeling this may last for a long time... YAY!!!